It feels kinda bittersweet. I'll miss lying on my back feeling you do somersaults and kick me. I'll miss knowing that you are enjoying the meal I'm eating because you start to move like crazy. I'll miss being able to look down, and watch you wiggle around and rub my stomach affectionately (despite the fact that I'm humongous, have hard core cankles and my ring size is the same as my husband's). :) Pregnancy really has been wonderful. I feel terrific, despite the size of you. Sleeping is a little tricky since I have to rotate from side to side so often, but I love having you in bed with me and Lance. It's been wonderful. Really. I feel so blessed that it's been so easy for me thus far, and hope things go well with the delivery part of things.
I am a little bit nervous about all of that. You seem big, so I hope you fit... The doctors have said a c-section is possible, but I'm going to try to do all I possibly can to have you come the way I want. But if not, it's not important how you get here, just that you do and you and I are healthy. I'm excited to meet you. To see you, and finally have you in my arms instead of in my stomach. I feel like we have everything ready, well except we probably should get some burp cloths, socks, mittens for your hands so you don't go all Edward Scissorhands on your face.... ah, the list goes on and on. But I'm not worried, if we need something for you, we'll get it.
Lance and I had a great night last night as we realize that it's one of the last we will have just the two of us. He secretly ordered me a "Hooter Hider" which I totally spaced that I needed since I'm going to try and breastfeed with you. He's so amazing like that. Just surprised me - picked out the fabric and everything for it (your dad has excellent taste - hope you get that from him). Then off to Texas Roadhouse, where things were cooked so well, and we had fun despite waiting forever to get in, but hey it's Provo on a Friday night. Then in an amazing stroke of good luck, the weather was nice and cool and we decided that instead of just coming straight home, we'd take a drive with the windows down and blast as loud as we wanted some of our favorite songs. We just took turns picking favorites and enjoying the wind in our faces. We laughed, reminisced, I sang along sometimes, and you just wiggled like mad when a song with tons of bass started playing. It was awesome. I should have taken a picture of my hair - I looked like an electrocuted crazy person. :)
It's kinda odd that tomorrow we will just go to the hospital to get things started. Though I'm super relieved to not have had my water break anywhere public. In just no time at all, you'll be with us and a completely amazing and nerve-wrecking part of our lives will start. I can't wait. :)
This is beautiful Annie! I'm so excited for Lex to come and for you to hold that sweet boy in your arms.
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